Thankfully, I'm also interning at the Family Justice Center which gives me time to breathe and surround myself with people who share my passion for DV issues. I work under the attorney who manages all cases of family violence that need service with temporary restraining orders. It's sometimes draining because I see clients (mainly women) who walk in with 3 or 4 kids, some with crazy bruises, hoping there's room for them in the overcrowded shelters to seek safety from their abusers. But it's also sometimes entertaining because I get to read about all the cases and how the victims frame their story, one of which began with "we got into a huge fight before and after sex...." Basically, I get excited when I go to my internship because there's never a dull day!
Anyway, I was feeling very defeated and unmotivated after taking my second LSAT diag on Saturday. The LSAT is really testing my dedication, focus, motivation, and self worth. I just need to keep reminding myself that I'm not gong to let this HUGE BLOCK in the road stop me from getting me where I want to be, even if it takes me a couple more years to get there. I've found a new appreciation for 'processes' this past month...although inevitably because I had no other choice BUT to appreciate it (is this what people call maturity?) I thought I understood gold year's quote to the T, but I've found new meaning for it which comforts me everyday-
"The greatest thing in this world is not so much where we are, but in what direction we are moving."
...Which brings me to my next revelation. Yesterday was Alicia's 22nd birthday/fundraiser at beauty bar. I get knots in my stomach just thinking about how during this time last year, we were all gong crazy in Vegas celebrating her birthday, waking up still drunk at 7AM going door to door to Nevada residents to campaign for Obama because Alicia was so committed to his cause. The sleeping beauty still hasn't woke up from her coma but she is slowly and surely improving. Alicia's mom takes care of her 24hours a day and is running low on funds needed to support all of her medical expenses. Please support if you can!
www.sendinglovetoaliciabailey.com
I wish she was physically there with us yesterday to celebrate her birthday, and I know she still has much to do here on earth. She just needs to stop having so much fun in her dreams! Alicia, we all love you and miss you so much-
Cherish the connections made and time you spend with people everyday before it's too late. Even the guy you see every so often that sells you cigs at the same gas station. Jdot said something during SPOP closing this year that really stuck with me: in SPOP, we love our spoppers even before they walk through the door and way after the 2 days end. We should carry that SAME attitude with us everyday when we see people AND even after we meet them. (There's always irritating TFC spoppers but we know there's a reason why they act the way they do and still learn to love them, right?) This is probably one of my favorite qualities about Alicia, she is never quick to judge and always treats people with the same respect and kindness that they deserve. I'm very appreciative of all the people who've made an impact on my life and I try to express it as much as possible. You're NEVER guaranteed another breath to do so.
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