Time IS world's greatest healer. I love looking back and reflecting on all those points in my life where one could only WISH foresight was a 6th sense. I look back...and think...and LAUGH at how stupid situations look in hindsight. (I swear I learned that lesson when I was 13)

I'm coming to learn that in the real world, being cordial and civil is all part of maturity. But any sort of relationship beyond that is a choice. CHOOSE the relationships you allow in your life; no bullshit. You don't need to prove yourself to anyone but yourself. And you'll know which ones you should allow in because they will help that bright light shine through your thick skin. They will support you and understand you without conditions. Most importantly, they will make you HAPPY!!!!! :)

The power of energy. Learn it and practice it.

I will be practicing it at my last hurrah tomorrow. This will be the one to remember as the bittersweet era in my life comes to a close - I can feel it.

thick as blood.

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I like to think of myself as a pretty fearless person. Even in the face of death I really have no fear - which is either a blessing or a curse depending on how you see it. I personally like to think it's a blessing. I'm convinced I was a cat in my past life because it seems like I have 9 lives. (Maybe 7 now).

God understands that I'm a learner who learns best the HARD way. It's the age old debate of definition through opposition: How would you know joy if you didn't experience pain? How would you appreciate what you have if you didn't lose it all? How would you know a healthy relationship if you didn't experience a toxic one?

My friends and family had to watch me slowly lose myself (my motivation, goals, health, and self respect) as I spiraled down to a place I vow never to visit again. And for what worth? To teach me very valuable life lessons I just wasn't able to see through rose colored glasses. But I'm making a commitment to my health (physical, MENTAL, emotional, spiritual), a commitment to making smarter life choices, and a commitment to listening to both my mind and body to recognize unhealthy attachments from the beginning.

Thank you universe for slapping me in the face and getting me back on track - I desperately needed it.